Unexpected

For many decades I have been told a story - a lie. Even though I have been able to piece part of the truth together over the years, I am taken aback by the sudden loss of a basic belief. I don't really know why this is. I have known that I couldn't be sure of the truth. Still, my relative position in the world seems to have changed. I am unable to name what I am feeling. I am a little numb.